I've been back from my mission trip to south dakota for almost 2 months and i just now remembered i havent posted much about it- a whole paragraph cant even scratch the surface of the trip- so here is more about it-
WE had the best time- it was heart breaking to see the hopelessness of the kids- i mean to be between 4 and 14 and have no hope about your future- and half of the girls that came already have kids of their own- and their only 14!
In the week we were there we had 15 kids get saved- a true blessing.
while we were there we stayed with the pastor and his family- stephen, leah, and ethan leach- they were so nice and have such a great misnistry going on there- in a place where the poverty and unemplyment levels are astonishing and where crimes happen everywhere- its nice to know that there is a little piece of land in the middle of nowhere that is dedicated to teaching and saving the lost through Jesus Christ.
WE also had a few mishappes while we were there- the first church van to leave blew a tire 2 hours from home- and at our first overnight stop-in nebraska- it started hailling about an hour after we got there- and we were going to go horse back riding one day but we were 30 minutes late and they dropped our reservations- and then that same night on the way back to the church from a different activity one of our vans hit a horse that was wandering the streets- and because we were on an indian reservation we cant press charges to get money to fix the van because we are "white men" on the indain territory and we wouldnt get a cent- so now we have to get the van fixed- it will be expensive-
But through all this we kept paying and serving our lord and we made it home safly- and we avoided a huge hail/tornado storm that passed through 2 hour after we left for home.
and we got to see a buffalo!!!!!!!- one of the senior adults who was with us prayed for us to see a buffalo- and we did- and the scenery out there is amazing

OK, i could talk about this trip for hours, so ill stop here- i covered the main parts.

ttyl
Michelle

Can anyone help me?

I have a problem and maybe someone can help me. I dont exactly know how to say it, but I guess I'll just say it. Im having a hard time with jealousy and I've been asking God to take away my jealousy, but Its not gone- why not?
part of my problem is im jealous of the attention my youth pastor gives all the other students in the youth group, and the other part is im jealous of the attention my friends give to others but not me. The first, my youth pastors attention, is the hardest for me- you see, I know that he does not like me- and why not, i dont know- but ive seen the way he acts with other students and its not the way he acts with me. hes always asking others how their day is and whats happening in their life, but he never once asks me a thing, and he has this look of almost disgust on his face any time i ask him something. the other part of my problem, of friends attention, is also really hard for me to deal with- my friends are great- and i know they love me, but when im with some of them, i get this feeling that they dont want to be with me i dont know maybe im imagining it, but it seem so real. plus im jealous of the amount of time my friends spend with others- and i know that sounds snooty, bt i dont mean like i want to spend 24-7 with my friends and i dont expect them to want to spend that much time with me,but some time with them might be nice- i am almost always at home doing nothing and i know that they are out doing something without me, and its not like i dont try to get involved, ill call and ask if they want to do something, and they're always busy.up untill yeasterday, i hadnt seen a movie with a friend since febuary-
I know this has been a lot of rambling,and im sorry if you dont understand some of it, but i guess what i want to say is, just keep me in your prayers- that i wont harbor jealousy
Thanks
Michelle