My green monster of jealousy

I know that it's wrong
but I want what ya'll got
You all seem so loved
and I feel left out
but I cannot stop these thoughts

So I call out to God
Cuz I feel all alone
Though I know that he cares for me

Why cant I leave it alone
Why cant I trust you oh Lord

I know what to do
But it is hard for me to give in to your demands
Cuz you say that its wrong
and I know that you're right
But how do I stop all this hurt?

When i Wake up, It's there
When i Fall asleep, It's there
and all I want is some peace
A relase from this burden

Help me, Oh Lord