woes of a teenager

you know what i love about a blog? you can ramble on and on and on and on and no one cares because most of the time its just like a journal and not many people read it. well, this post is just gonna be a ramble because im having a hard time with something and i have to get it off my chest and tell someone- even if no one cares or reads about it- i have to just talk.

you see, im having a really hard time with a friend. shes one of my best firends in the world- shes definatly my closest chistian friend- but for some reason i am having the hardest time talking to her lately. i feel like either she doesnt care, shes not listening, or she thinks im stupid - and its driving me nuts cuz i want to be really close to her, but its not easy. i used to be able to tell her anything, but lately she has seemed so distant and i dont know what to do. i also really really want to talk to her, like a whole conversation on the phone or something, but i feel like shes too busy to care about me and i dont know what i should do!!! and i cant call her because i dont have anything specific to talk about and i feel stupid telling her to call me- but im desperate to talk to her- i feel like i might cry if i cant talk to her soon, but i honestly feel like she has no time for me. shes always either doing school, with her boyfirend, with her family, or with another friend. and another tihng is im so jealous of the attention she gives to other people- maybe i value her friendship more than she does mine, but i really want to be close to her and im just so confused!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! being a teenage girl is soooooo hard!

If anyone who reads this has any suggestions- please comment becuse i need some guidence on this

Thanks,
Michelle


PS- anyone who leaves a comment- please, please dont curse in them because then i have to go through and delete those comments