Ive known than I'm a jealous person for the past few years- and yet every time i feel jealousy coming back, im surprised. Just because I pray about it doesnt mean its going to magically disappear. I think sometimes i have to remind myself of the same things over and over again.
So, this sunday we were methodist. It was fun. we had a really good time. The worship was great and the pastor was pretty good. one of the things he said that really struck a cord in me was that pride is wrong. Ive known that my whole life, but then he went on to talk about how expecting praise or recognition and getting mad when you dont get it, is considered pride- and i realized that is what i did with my birthday. A) i expected people to call and wish me happy birthday and got mad when no one did- what kind of rediculousness is that- i didnt create myself- i wanted someone to recognize that i had gained a year of life- i didnt accomplish anything-God did. how selfish and mixed up is that logic??? B) I should have been grateful to have been born at all. C)it wasnt mom and dads faults they were sick. D) I have parents and friends who love me- what else do i need?
needless to say, im feeling better about the whole situation.
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