School starts on wednesday. Im not excited at all. My classes are going to be hard, and I just want to be done already. I know that's the wrong attitude to have, but I cant change the way I feel. I used to love school- It was my favorite place to go- besides chruch- but now, they ripped up part of the school- its ugly and now has no outside hallway, my favorite teacher retired, and one of my best friends is graduating early- i will never see her after december (she says we'll keep in touch, but i dont know if that will happen) Plus, katie's in ky, I have to change sunday school teachers in 2 weeks (i love stephanie, but i dont want to move out of riba's class), and i feel so far from God right now. I know that last one is all my own doing, but i cant- dont know how- to change it. and here in a few weeks im supposed to start teaching LIW- how am i going to do that if im not really conversing with God- im not mad at him or shunning him or anything, but i just am not where i should be - but i dont have anyone to talk to about it- im not a particularly open person- i dont share my deep feelings with many people, and one of the 2 that i do is gone and the other is leaving in december. I dont know what to do- it seemed like the right thing to do- take over liw- but im so confussed about it right now- i dont know if its what God really wants me to do, but i cant leave Jenna to do it all herself- it would die- plus im mad still at larry for even asking her- and i know i shouldnt be- but i am- he had no right-
urg- life sucks
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This quote I read today from this man in the 1800's. It's good.
"Cease, then, to deal with dogmas, feelings adn experience, however elevated or depressed, and behold the Lamb of God, contemplate his Person, study his work, feast upon his Word, revel in his fullness, bathe in the sea of his love, and let him be all in all to your soul."
Isn't that amazing Shelley? Remember His promise "drawn near to God and He will draw near to you." All it takes is some time on your knees. Tell Him. He can help you, I promise. See Shelley, that is the key to be a good bible study leader, always be on your knees. I wish I would have learned that sooner. You get that right, everything else will fall into place.
I love You! I know God has placed you (and Jenna!) here for a reason for this Bible study. Let Him use you, I know He can do amazing things for those girls through you.
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